Being Blind

#MeAsWell

#MeAsWell

My mentors are critical of the trajectory of my career.   Apparently, I change jobs too often, sadly many times because of my disability, I’m not a good fit or the employer isn’t a good fit for me, or just blatant discrimination.   My average in a position is less than sixteen months.     The cool side of […]

By February 26, 2018 Read More →
I Don’t Want To Help You

I Don’t Want To Help You

Recently I’ve met a new demographic. Until recently I didn’t understand that there are people who do not want to help. I live with a disability and sometimes need the assistance of another. It’s not that I’ve expected the help and there are some who haven’t helped. Until recently I’ve never encountered people who can […]

By January 28, 2018 Read More →
Terrorism, Active Shooter

Terrorism, Active Shooter

I need to adjust my routines and disciplines I use to function in the world. Recently there have been too many mass shootings and too many incidents of people using cars to kill people. The sad truth is that if someone is motivated enough to get you they will get you.   Recently I was […]

By October 4, 2017 Read More →
Terrorism, Cars

Terrorism, Cars

During orientation and mobility training with a cane and a guide dog I was taught to go to the edge of the sidewalk at the corner. I can’t do this now I’ll be the biggest target for a terrorist in a car. I need to have options. Now at each corner I go to I […]

By October 4, 2017 Read More →
Voice Over

Voice Over

I’ve been working on starting a career in voice over for several years now. At the beginning of the journey my coaches told me it will take 3 to 4 years depending on how hard you work at it. It took about 4 years for me. I’ve taken many classes for voice over and have […]

By October 2, 2017 Read More →
Detached Retina’s

Detached Retina’s

I have Ocular Albinism OA2, I think, part of the package is the retina doesn’t form property. This year we’ve been renovating. Last year paint outside. This year lost of paint and changes inside. I finally have a dedicated studio space, first time ever.     As with all things there is a price. When […]

By November 9, 2015 Read More →
Communication & Imagination

Communication & Imagination

  Living with Ocular Albinism I’ve always tried to define the word accommodation?   My definition for accommodation recently changed.   I’m an Information Technology professional; naturally my definition of accommodation has revolved around technology.   Here are the solutions I’ve found to the problems I face with Ocular Albinism.   Light Sensitivity My irises are translucent so […]

By January 23, 2015 Read More →
The Only Thing to Fear is Fear Itself

The Only Thing to Fear is Fear Itself

  I’m headed back to school this fall. The first time in over thirty years. i’m terrified. Its not the balancing of work, and school, and family, I’m used to balancing life on the head of a pin. Its overcoming the fear of failure.   School has not been a good thing for me. Most […]

By September 3, 2014 0 Comments Read More →
Leap of Faith

Leap of Faith

  I’ve always wanted to make my living from my vocal talent.    Seriously I can sing and sing very well.  I’m not an exceptional talent with the ability to write and play another instrument, but I can really sing.     I’ve wanted to for about twenty years record a number of albums.    I sing a number […]

By September 2, 2014 0 Comments Read More →
If You Don’t Know Me By Now…..

If You Don’t Know Me By Now…..

Identity has been a topic of interest for me for a while.    It’s fascinating to me how people interact with me with my disability.    I’m clear on who I am more so than I’ve been for most of my life.   It shocks me how many people get stuck on the disability.   Most of the people […]

Happy Fathers Day

Happy Fathers Day

I haven’t celebrated fathers day in a while. The journey has not afforded me the opportunity to have a father to celebrate with or children to celebrate with me.   This has been an interesting year of shifting sands old lives new lives visitors into that maze. This spring has been crazy. Moving from a […]

Support Systems

Support Systems

As the Beach Boys put it, “I Get Around!!”. It’s all about gettin around. If you’re blind, simply put, you need to be the easiest date at the prom. It’s all about logistics. Getting groceries, getting to the doctor, getting the kids, etc. It’s about getting things done. Your support system is everything. Without it […]

Cycling

Cycling

I have cycled all my life. Cycling has always been a reliable way for me to get from point A to point B. I would cycle to the swimming pool or my friends place etc. I am adept at commuting on a bicycle and riding across the city if necessary to get somewhere. I’ve only […]

Driving

Driving

Not being able to drive was the most painful thing in my life.   For the first time in my life there was no way to pretend to be like everyone else no more illusions.  I am legally blind.   I was definitely different.  It didn’t matter how high functioning I was or wasn’t or how well […]

Coming Out Blind

Coming Out Blind

For most of my life I have not lived openly with my blindness. I have hid it and rejoiced in its invisibility. The sad thing with most things you try to hide about yourself the only person I was fooling was myself….   It takes a lot of energy to appear sighted, you’re constantly acting and anticipating the […]

Downhill Skiing

Downhill Skiing

I love to downhill ski.   I grew up in Calgary forty five minutes from Banff and some of the best skiing in the world.     I learned to ski in Calgary at PaskaPoo renamed Canada Olympic Park for the 1988 Calgary Winter Olympics.   Anyway when I was learning to ski we called it Poo Glacier as […]

Raising Children

Raising Children

Parenting is interesting at the best of times. I’ve learned more about parenting styles since my divorce then I did during my marriage. Do I parent differently because I’m blind? In a word yes. Before I had children I was the biggest opinionated arrogant non parent around. Oh those people don’t know how to parent […]

Changing a Diaper

Changing a Diaper

Isn’t it a right of passage for a parent to get painted with urine or plastered with poo while changing a diaper? I think all of us parents have at least one story, well maybe two. I’m not convinced that there is any difference being blind and changing diapers. Its a nasty affair at the […]

Support Systems

Support Systems

As the Beach Boys put it, “I Get Around!!”. It’s all about gettin around. If you’re blind, simply put, you need to be the easiest date at the prom. It’s all about logistics. Getting groceries, getting to the doctor, getting the kids, etc. It’s about getting things done. Your support system is everything. Without it […]

Canned Extrovert

Canned Extrovert

I am a weird mix of introvert and extrovert. People who know me – friends or colleagues – would all call me a “flaming extrovert”. Generally this is true. However; in situations out in the world that I don’t have context for, or situations that are adverse to me seeing, I am a decided introvert. […]

Performing

Performing

I sing. Funny that a voice like a fog horn. A tuned fog horn of course. But still very loud and distinctive. I have done a number of shows over the years with lead roles and chorus roles, for amateur and professional companies. So I really can sing. I even do the national anthems from […]

I Should Have Known

I Should Have Known

I connected with a cousin of mine the other day. During the conversation of catching up we touching on my disability. She knew I was blind, but not what that meant or what it was called. I should have known. I’ve spent so much time lately being angry and frustrated at my family of origin […]

Realizing My Potential

Realizing My Potential

Have you ever noticed how, depending on you take on things, God or the universe chooses to talk to us? Have you ever noticed how often we are given messages? There are countless songs poems stories etc about how we are spoken to. The subtle the sublime and sometimes the sledgehammer on our stubborn heads, […]

Cone of Silence

Cone of Silence

I’ve talked to a number of people recently and I’m shocked. I have been ignorant and naive. People with any disability, visible or not, disease, affliction whatever feel like they are not allowed to talk about their condition. I’ve been told by many not for profit organizations that their donors demand to be anonymous. The […]

Empathy

Empathy

Have you ever asked yourself why you seem to be more receptive to some and not so much to others? Have you ever wondered at work why if an idea came from one colleague it was received differently then if another colleague expressed the same idea? Do you notice that if something is not in […]

Teenage Blindness

Teenage Blindness

The teenage years for anyone are probably some of the hardest and delightful moments of ones life. Its the first time you ask yourself who am I? The first time you figure out what is important to you, the first time you begin to understand who and what you are and what you stand for. […]

Normal

Normal

None of us like to feel or admit we are different. I look at my choice of careers. I used to shun the musician, masseuse thing as it was stereotypically blind. I now am spending more time singing and want to learn the message trade. I chose a career in information technology “IT”. Why because […]

Making a Living

Making a Living

Its very difficult making a living as a blind person. The most stress I’ve ever had in my life was when I was married, for the first time, and I was the only bread winner. I couldn’t get my x-wife to work for nothing. Supporting four mouths was a ton of pressure. In the workplace […]

Angry Blindman

Angry Blindman

CNN has provided much inspiration for my writing recently. There was a headline recently about Obama in the context of the BIG oil spill. A lot of people want Obama to get mad and kick some butt. When your a member of a “group” of people be it a color creed or disability you are […]

Poverty, Disability

Poverty, Disability

I was hypothesizing about growing up in poverty, disabled, blind. I grew up in Canada. Generally the poverty levels here are better than in other parts of the world but indeed poverty exists here as well. I’ve done some reading and research and have had several conversations about poverty. I am no expert on poverty. […]

Erotica

Erotica

Not a topic I’ve talked about yet, “Sex”. We’’ll yes as far as I know and from my own experience yes Blind People have sex, and like it, occasionally love it and “NO” I didn’t go blind from inappropriately touching myself. I’m not going to comment on the dark side of sexuality and pornography. Other […]

What is the Human Condition?

What is the Human Condition?

What is the human condition indeed? When you synthesize distill and peel back the layers of life what are you left with? Death. Life will ultimately lead to death. All life comes with the instinct to survive be it the individual, the colony, the species. You could take a step further back and ponder what […]

Activism vs Advocacy

Activism vs Advocacy

Duality, paradox, is how I view my experience with blindness. There are things I can do and can see in some contexts and there are many many things I can’t do or see no matter what. I was challenged in a discussion, am I an advocate,?“a person who speaks or writes in support or defense […]

Technical Accommodation

Technical Accommodation

I’m struggling with the issue of technical accommodation, who’s responsibility is it, who pays, and who gets to keep the gear?. As a disabled person there are pieces of technology that make many things in my day and my personal and professional life possible. I’m going to publish a picture of myself showing the technology […]

Kindled

Kindled

I love reading. Did I say I love reading, most of my life I’ve been an avid reader. I’ve read until my eye’s have bled. Nothing like your imagination and a good story to take you anywhere or anyplace in time and space. As I’ve aged I’ve lost the ability and the energy to read […]

Self Loathing

Self Loathing

Its easy when your disabled to blame everything that doesn’t go as you had hoped on the disability, every failure, every failed relationship, work related issues, anything. The challenge of a disability is to be totally and completely honest with yourself and those around you. I hate being blind sometimes. Not so much anymore but […]

What Does a Blind Man Look Like

What Does a Blind Man Look Like

This is me. I’m six foot four inches tall, probably about three hundred pounds and blind. I’m told everyday that I don’t look blind. I’m really not what you’d expect too see when you see a blind person. What do you expect when you see a person of disability? What do you expect to see […]

Getting Out The Door

Getting Out The Door

You might not know it to look at me but I am utilizing six things to accommodate me and my disability. There are six things I use just to get out the door and walk down the street. Lets start at the top and work our way down. Tilley Hat Part of my disability is […]

Morality

Morality

I have not sinned. I am not stained because I am disabled and blind. Alternatively I am not disabled because I am stained or I have sinned. My purpose in life, my meaning in life is profoundly different from yours. I don’t exist to embarrass, disappoint or punish you even if you think that I […]

Studies In Pain

Studies In Pain

Having experienced pain first hand in my life due to trauma both emotional and physical, I have an observation. It is paradoxical to me that to heal physically and emotionally are two different things. To heal physically you have to manage reduce and attempt to eliminate the pain. The more pain your body has to […]

Is Your Cowboy Hat Too Tight

Is Your Cowboy Hat Too Tight

I’ve been picking on Calgary in my writing recently, its hard returning home to find that home is no longer home and discover how much you’ve changed as well. I’m no longer a Calgarian but I am a Calgarian in the best sense of the word, I am friendly and helpful. There used to be […]

Guerrilla Job Hunting

Guerrilla Job Hunting

I still advocate the use of the job hunting system in the book “What Color is Your Parachute”. These days the job hunting market is tough, Guerrilla job hunting is the added approach the extra work you have to do to get the job, you have to be tenacious bordering on obnoxious. To start you […]

Aeron Chair by Herman Miller – Official Retailer – Highly Adjustable – Graphite Frame – Lumbar Pad – Carbon Classic (Medium)

Aeron Chair by Herman Miller – Official Retailer – Highly Adjustable – Graphite Frame – Lumbar Pad – Carbon Classic (Medium)

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Kinesis Advantage Pro Metallic Includes Footswitch

Kinesis Advantage Pro Metallic Includes Footswitch

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Children With Visual Impairments: A Guide for Parents

Children With Visual Impairments: A Guide for Parents

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Self-Esteem and Adjusting With Blindness: The Process of Responding to Life’s Demands

Self-Esteem and Adjusting With Blindness: The Process of Responding to Life’s Demands

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From Homer to Helen Keller: a Social and Educational Study of the Blind

From Homer to Helen Keller: a Social and Educational Study of the Blind

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Being Content

Being Content

I started my journey to contentment with a counsellor. The counsellor and I were together for a long time and I miss her desperately. I long for this companion from time to time and her counsel all the time. Thank you to this person for giving me the tools to live, for that gift for […]

Forgiveness

Forgiveness

Upon returning to Calgary I joined the “Calgary Chamber of Commerce” to support my reintroduction to the city and networking. Honestly as well its a clean safe place to go where the bathrooms don’t smell the people are friendly and the coffee doesn’t suck. The chamber runs some networking sessions for those of us doing […]

My Bad Blind Self

My Bad Blind Self

  I started this blog over two years ago, where has the time gone? But it was all about me, me and my bad self and my experience with blindness. I’ve grown as I’ve written both as a person, a disabled person a writer and a commentator on the human condition. I like to think […]